Feeling a little afraid and apprehensive on what is to come in this new year. My year hasn't exactly started yet, since I will only start work on 8th Jan. Also, I haven't get to spend my new year with my dear housemate and him. My housemate will be returning tomorrow, I finally have a girlfriend that I can talk to with me.
There is this fear in me when it comes to be with him again. I'm sure everything will be good, I just feel like he is away for too long and when he is away, I reflected alot about us, perhaps not just us, about myself in general.
I realise that there are so many occasions, I do things to to please people around me. While it is true that I am doing it because I also enjoy the activity, but I was so caught up with their appreciation I forgot how fun and soemtimes, rewarding the process was. Hence I should really immerse myself in activities I enjoy, for myself and not for anyone else.
I shouldn't really expect anything from anyone. Aside from work, I want to live a life without expectations.
I feel liberated now.
Posted at 1/4/2007 5:37:57 pm by zinny
